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Published On: Oct 17, 2003 08:01
Sun - August 10, 2003
Shaved .. the pictures!
At last, I can show you a few pictures of
me now that I have removed my beard. I still look kinda funny, but
not as bad as I thought I would. Whaddya think?
Posted at 01:21
Hanging out with young girls
Yana are a pair of 18 year old girls with whom I've been hanging out
lately. It's nice to have friendly pretty people with whom to have fun.
Emotions run pretty light.
Posted at 01:20
- August 2, 2003
A lovely day at the Beach
So my translator, Victoria (short blond hair)
invited me to come along with her and her friends (Olga on the right and Angela
on the left) to the Black Sea to the beach for a day. We left Friday night and
drove 1-1/2 hours in Angela's nice Suzuki sedan to a cafe where Victoria has
friends and they helped us find a place to stay the night and we went out to the
beach for the evening. Lots of Amusement park-like stuff; bars, cafes,
restaurants, rides and every manner of food and drink and music. Quite a
party.In the morning, we had breakfast
and spent the day at the beach proper, swimming and sunning. We left at 4ish.
There was a great water slide and lots of small rentable boats and tons and tons
of friendly people. Sorry - didn't take the camera to the beach except for a
brief visit early in the morning before breakfast. Here
is a larger picture and here are the
pictures from the
Posted at 11:37
Wed - June 18, 2003
About Those lovely Israelis I met on the train...
Shani and Tsach and Reut and Oren were on the train
from Budapest. They study veterinary science and biology. I was invited to a
lovely breakfast this morning at Shani and Tsach's house and the five of us had
a great time. It very very sweet of them and it felt very warm to have folks to
talk to in English. (They all spoke Hebrew, too). They told me where to find
the Veterinary College hotel and the tourist information shop downtown. They
also explained to me that Yes, indeed, I could go into the downtown church.
Posted at 10:36
Wed - May 7, 2003
Adam and Mo
& Maureen are from Chicago. His parents also have a summer home
in Scotland. She is a teacher. The two of them are living here and studying
Spanish. They are very sweet and have been showing me around town a bit.
Posted at 08:32
Fri - March 21, 2003
My friends Dezra and her ex-husband David have
between them three daughters - Evi, Jessica & Alex who all attend Bandelier
elementary school. Yesterday, the school held its annual parent's
spigetti dinner and book sale. Dezra asked me to accompany her and it turned
out to be a lovely experience. Never in waking memory have I been in a large
room filled with so many adults and children and the energy was very sweet and
brought me back to my own childhood and times that, although I could not
consciously remember, still felt very connected. I was pleasantly surprised by
how much I enjoyed the whole experience.
Posted at 11:05
Wed - February 12, 2003
A new friend
Since the end of November, I have also been
corresponding -intermitently- with a young woman from Kiev, Ukraine.
works as a translator for a company which produces chickens for cooking. She
has a wonderful boyfriend (Carlos) who used to be a pilot and they live together
with her family. It has been interesting to share my feelings with her. Since
I am still thinking about going to Ukraine in April or May for the summer, it is
also nice to have a friendly contact there who knows me well enough to
understand what I am searching for (at least, as well as I understand myself,
Posted at 12:00
Tue - February 11, 2003
I received a reply to my yahoo
personal ad a couple weeks ago. I've been corresponding with Marianne, a friendly pagan who lives
in San Francisco and used to be a teacher. She has helped me figure out some
very heavy things about my feelings lately, for which I am very grateful. I, in
turn, have helped her begin to learn a little
particular, although I have guessed for quite some time that my obsession with
sex has been somehow closely related to feelings of starvation of early
childhood nurtureance, discussions with Marianne have yielded far more precise
new awareness.Specifically, since my
parents had no clue how to nurture me when I was small and I, as all babies
instictively knew what I needed, I instead turned to the television. The
creatures shown on TV, beautiful, slim white models, would look into my eyes and
I could sit close enough to see their faces; something otherwise unknown to me.
The only other people I can remember who ever bothered to look at my face close
enough for me to actually see them besides my brother and sister (very
occasionally) were my parents, who already prooved themselves untrustworthy
emotionally. So the first time I feel really nurtured is with a lover. Hence,
the obsession. Now that I know what is really going on in here, I feel much
better prepared to go out in the world and get what I want and need. I still
feel like I need extra nurturance, but this feeling is becomming less pronounced
than it has been for many years, for which I am extremely thankful.
Posted at 12:00
Tue - January 14, 2003
Why have I been engrossed in Harry Potter Fanfic lately.
The combination of lots of juicy adolicent sexual
angst and classic orphan and early childhood abandonment issues are a fine lever
to access my own internal stories. Since I cannot conciously remember any
concrete details of my childhood, I'm trying to access the emotions directly by
reading these stories. And, it's working quite well. I've spent quite a few of
the past few days' crying.
Posted at 09:48